What happened??

I was going through some of the blogs today..or shall we say tonight. I saw a trend, I felt more connected to posts which were more towards the practical side of life, like the one with a mention about practical problems a girl faces in periods, or the one which mentioned about boons and banes of living a nomadic life or more commonly known as being in transferable job. Offcourse love still appealed, but it was more on realistic grounds of companionship, needs and benefits of it. Posts which were highly creative (honestly), but based on unrealistic grounds hardly seemed to catch my attention..I don't believe its me who wrote the last post,(looks like a romantic poem to me and yes.... I wrote it) so what happened??? Is my job taking over me, or its like that movie "Aparichit" talking about multiple personality disorder...I guess its job, I am not sure though. During my sales training at TVS the fact came out that I am a mix of "Panther"& "Peacock"...Panthers are practical, result oriented, believe in order and discipline, they are no-nonsense people. Peacocks on the other hand are creative, fun loving party animals, they love shows and show offs....what a contradiction and I am both of them...God help my wife, who so ever she be...
So I guess the nature of my job (which is sales) is strengthening only one part of my persona.. So what, practical people can be bloggers too, what if I am more on result orientation side now.My next post will be on dealer sales person training and the differences between retail and billing targets, but is it good?? ....and would someone ever read it??....I am really doubtful...may be I should revisit this post to remind myself that somewhere inside me lies a peacock too, the one who used to dance at LBS parties from start till end, one who was given the title of Mr Tansen, the one which never gave a damn about results and concentrated more on efforts, and was contented with it, the one who once was made to drink deceitfully and people could not find the difference between pre drunk and post drunk state as both were like post drunk state only, the one who wrote the last post, "I wish"...

I wish...

I had a wish, not a very great one
I wish that I had you,
you my life, you the one,
I wish you existed, so that I could hold you in my arms
kissed you, fondled you and relished your charm.

I wish we comforted each other in summers, and celebrated winters
I wish together we dwelt in some serenity
and together we would have sailed distances beyond any dreams.
I look for you like a ship searches for a beacon light
tries to clear a mist that spreads around it and end its plight.
I do not show my loneliness,
I hide it behind the arrogance of a man
but the fact remains, behind that jovial face
hides a lonely man
I wish I could be the shoulder, you search to rest your head
I wish I wish, I wish this was true
turned into reality , all that I said
I wish that I was loved
and I wish that I loved you....